Shroud had a secret. Once a month, he spent a day locked inside the prison of his own body. He heard all around him, felt all that pressed into his frozen flesh, but could move nothing. Speak nothing. A lump, a smear of mud. That was not the secret. It was hard to hide, at least, for one blessed with a caring family, like he. It was similar to the affliction his mother possessed, but where he had but once a month, she was all month save a day. He was the lucky one, and he was grateful.
His secret was that every month, past the day, he wanted - more. To run - a little farther, till he could not gasp for air. To dive - a little deeper, till his lungs would burst. To jump the chasm. It was not a death wish - he feared not death, but, at such a time, he felt perhaps too close to that - it was a wish to
live.And so, this month, he asked his darling
Maggot to please take care of his mother, and he would go to the mountains.
It had not been as hard to locate the expedition as he had mildly feared. Kin had been excited, with ready answers to his questions as he'd searched. Near the end, all he'd had to do was follow the thud-thud of overlapping hoofsteps.
...At least, he was pretty sure this was the expedition.
"Hullo," he said, pleasantly, to no one in particular, then lapsed into the background, content to steep in the hubbub. A smear of mud like him was very good at lapsing into the background.